“Forever is composed of nows.”

Looking online today I stumbled upon people creating their Bucket Lists. Made up of the many things they want to experience, places they want to see, and what they want to achieve in life before it ends. For me this is a very, very attractive concept and decided I am going to start mine! What better time than the present?

There are so many things I want to put in my list that I have no clue where to start. I have been living a -not boring - but pretty safe life and it has been my own doing. I have never travelled very far, never lived in the moment because I felt everyone was looking and judging me silently. To anybody out there that feels the same way as me and thinks there is no way it will get better, it will. We are our own worst enemy because nobody makes us feel anything, it's us.

As I am finding it difficult starting I am going to pick three things and keep adding to it over time!

1. Join a course studying art. I want to pick up where I left off with my art and teach myself more. My love for art has never left me. Keeping my mind occupied makes me feel like I am not wasting the precious time I have. When I put my feelings, thoughts and imagination onto paper or shape it with clay I feel proud. The accomplished feeling when you complete a project is amazing, and I miss it.

2. Visit Japan. Now this is the one place I know I want to see! One museum in particular draws me there and that is the Ghibli Museum. The culture, fashion, night life and food. Experiencing it all would be amazing and one way or another I will get there.

3. Say yes to new things. Never have I said yes to something that is out of my comfort zone. Just recently I was asked to go to a festival with my boyfriend, and because I wasn't a fan of the music I said no. I regret that more than anything now, and every time before that. That is the worst feeling I have ever felt, which I intend never to endure again!

In a few short weeks I am moving to the Netherlands and my life is going to change and I welcome it all. It's scary to leave my family behind in the UK, but it's time for a fresh start. To live in the moment.